The importance of the Rest Note.


“Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer’s day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time.”
― John LubbockThe Use Of Life


Rest… No not sleep. Rest. I have slept many times and woken up more tired than when I went to bed because I am someone who is super guilty of not doing things that energise me and grow me as a person. I am very good at completing the task. I complete tasks so well that tasks can begin to complete me and when I actually stop I have no idea how to answer “Hey! What do you enjoy  doing in your spare time?” Firstly what is spare time and secondly… I will get back to you on that one.


I absolutely love writing and love reading but I do not do this everyday … Why? Well there are other things I need to do.

“Most of us spend too much time on what is urgent and not enough time on what is important.”
― Stephen R. Covey

Dancers have a count in their dancing to ensure they keep the beat and don’t fumble around.. but here we are not going from 1,2,3,4 but from 123456789 and fumbling around and having more bags under our eyes than Prada has ever made. We will put our self in the trenches of dissatisfaction if we do not focus on the war of achieving, growing and being true to ourselves. Being true to ourselves has more to do than thinking we are nice people and this are our morals but it also has to do with who are we really? what makes us happy? what do we enjoy doing and are we taking care of ourselves. People become s sick that doctors put them on bed rest. Yes,bed rest. Not an endurance race to push themselves further. No rest.

I have developed something very interesting this year and yes it is self diagnosed but I have developed some sort of anxiety. I am good at getting things done that when “the reward for hard work is more hardwork” appears I accept it and just run from task to task in leaps and bounds that when soemone asks me something about my work I get on high defense mode and if I am not busy enough I sit and think about all the things I need to do and I can feel my heart beating out of my chest into my throat and then I shut down and create more lists… lists on lists. Goodness I could create a to do list for my to do list.


I have owned the plot twists that came my way this year  but I have fallen short in the regard that I disregard the moment to enjoy the bigger  picture but when the bigger picture comes around I am too busy thinking about how it is all supposed to play out that I miss that too.


You need to sit and analyse where you want to go and how you actually want to feel when you get there. Make time for the important things – We are told to rest in God and not to be so exhausted that we cannot even finish our Bible reading for the day. If we ever become too busy for God then we are more busy than God ever intended us to be. Love others as you love yourself but being too busy to love yourself will result in you not loving others correctly either.

I once again have no quick or easy way to rest and to feel on fire instead of a heap of ash that you crave sleep for many many years but all I can say is praise God, praise Him again and breath.

Rest isn’t easy and I know for many people saying no isn’t an easy task and for me asking for help is even more daunting because I may be 5.4 but I can do this. YAAAS. Haha just joking but rest means saying no to the person who wants you to stay up until 3 again because they refuse to take your advice, it means declining that party because you have had a busy week, it means telling yourself to stop thinking in a certain way and imagining scenarios that haven’t even happened yet and probably never will. You do not need to escape from your life but you do need to know how to put rest in there and prioritise things like praying, reading your Bible, having 10 minutes of absolute silence because you are overwhelmed. It is about speaking to your soul and to forge ahead. Rest. Realise Even Superheroes Tire. Saving the world is hard work but resting doesn’t mean you never saved the world it is just about regaining your strength and mind. Rest isn’t an escape from life but enjoying it.


Put your feet up, watch Friends again or eat that bowl of popcorn without looking at your emails. Get up and finally run the run you promised yourself you’d run. Do the things you have been putting on the back burner and in the midst of it all – rejoice.

“Rest and be thankful.” ― William Wordsworth


just a bunch of no sense.



The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense. – Tom Clancy-

Coming up with a plan and goal for your life or year immediately shows where you’ll be attacked and challenged.

This is why so many people don’t stick to their new years resolutions because it becomes difficult or seems mundane and there’s yet another thing we didn’t have enough guts to follow through with. It’s just who we are as humans. So when I had the vision of “Seize and Live Loved” stirred in my heart I knew the attack would come and that I’d feel tired and that I’d become exhausted emotionally

I don’t mind physical challenges or pushing through because it’s logical and I can see it so I can find a way to change it but emotional challenges knock me hard to the core. I can over think overthinking and overthink my overthinking. I can go into a downward spiral that can result in me breaking my own spirit and own heart. Scary right? A few weeks ago I posted about the fear of being happy. And let me tell you I was extremely happy when I wrote it. Happy to the point of having a bounce in my step and a smile on my face every moment. Nothing could bring me down. Needless to say that once I decided to sit in the comfort of happiness my warm blanket was ripped away from me and the couch began to be the station of thoughts beginning to swirl all around.

I struggle to live with the idea of me deserving something just for me being me. It doesn’t make sense so when something happens it must be because I did something to deserve it. Like there was some work and physical action that resulted in what is happening. “Just because” gifts don’t make sense to me. And “just because” blessings make even less sense to me. Like I know like I know God loves me and blesses us but I used to be stuck in the thought that if I do this God will do this. Oh silly me God is way bigger than my comprehension. The point of the story is that once I began embracing everything around me and allowing myself to be happy and accepting and not doubting all these ” just because” things the pulling and snugging came.

It happened gradually and then the rug was pulled out from out from under me and that’s when I knew I had to fight with everything within me not to go into a spiral of doubt and a spiral of trying to blame myself. The blame has to go somewhere right? There isn’t anyone else to blame? No other situation to blame so I’ll blame myself. Logical. Concise. There’s a plan. I like plans.

If you’re reading this and nodding your head I’m about to rock both our boats. Self blame does not bring earthly resolution. Self blame does not bring comfort, sense or closure. Self blame however shakes your identity, shakes your purpose and results in you becoming brittle. Brittle bones break and if you dare suck the calcium and magnesium from your bones anymore you are doing more than just self blame you are self harming. It’s a dangerous game to play. You need to take a stand and decide on a valid action plan such as – prayer, God’s word and capturing those thoughts before they suck Joy from your life. Happiness is a fleeting emotion but Joy is an atmosphere. And that means it needs to be created and cultivated.


I don’t have an easy ” here’s how to not overthink in 5 steps ” but all I can say is that you have to decide. Take a stand and don’t allow the thoughts to spiral and swirl and wrap you in its tornado of bitterness, anger or sadness. Go towards the flood of love, acceptance and joy. The natural disaster of tornado overthinking is bad but the natural disaster of God’s flooding love and acceptance is restoring.


” Whenever I say your name- let the devil know not today.” – Hillsong

“You don’t understand now what I am doing, but someday you will.” – John 13:7

We weren’t made to understand everything God says or does but we were called to be obedient and trusting. If it was about seeing it wouldn’t be faith it would be called walking and trusting in your own human ability.


2016, Uncategorized

One of a kind.

“…you’ll search for me inside of everyone you’re with & I won’t be found.” r.h. sin

Comparison is such an ugly thing but is something we do unintentionally. Comparison has to be made as humans are our threshold of who we are. We cannot describe ourselves without referring to another human as a threshold. “I am short” How do you know you are short without comparing yourself with someone who is taller than you? “I am tan” How would you know that without comparing yourself with someone who is pale or dark? Comparison is necessary and important surely but we have taken it too far. We have become radical comparison humans.

I am sure many women will agree with me and say that when they cut their hair men started treating them differently and some men will even go so far as to say that women are more attractive with long hair than short hair and I have two things to say to those men…

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People will always compare you and that is just what humans do so naturally but when you begin comparing yourself to the next person that is when trouble sets in. “Comparison is the thief of joy.” If you feel you need to change yourself into someone you are not just to get someone to love or like you then you are selling yourself short. The way to get ahead in life and be happy is by successfully being yourself because no one on this planet is who you are. He will search for someone better to replace you but that won’t happen because no one is arranged in the manner in which you are arranged and the key to true happiness is to accept and love the wonderful arrangement in which you have been created.