2016, Uncategorized

Disillusioned hallucinations

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My soul leads me into the desert, into the desert of my own self. – Carl Jung

I was speaking to a friend of mine the other day about different seasons of life and she brought up that there can be a season of complete stagnation… I never really thought of a season of “nothing” but that is when I realised that I am in fact in my desert season.

The desert is super hot during the day and super cold at night and without water hallucinations begin to take over your mind. I entitled this blog post “disillusioned hallucinations” because no other words described this season (in which I find myself )any better. When you get stuck in a desert experts would tell you to keep out of the sun as best as you can- which runs true in a figurative desert- you have to protect yourself from others spotlight because if you focus too much on it your mind will begin to become dehydrated and you will thirst for something that is not within your reach.

At the first sign of thirst you are advised not to drink all your water at once. You need to ration yourself as the days go on. So basically when the first sign of success comes or the first sign of movement comes along don’t indulge yourself in it. Take small sips and remember this is the reason for the desert season. DO NOT PANIC when you are stranded in a desert- When we find ourselves in the desert we usually find ourselves walking in circles or into bigger trouble simply because we want to get out of this dry dry dry area… Staying put in a desert is what experts encourage. You need to calm yourself in order to truly assess who you are and how you ended up here. Once you have calmed down and are certain you know where you are going – it is important to make your mark. You are encouraged to focus on a distant landmark and to follow it to wherever you are going. So in your figurative desert it is important to keep your focus on where you want to be even if you do not know where you want to be you still need to focus on a future where you are happy and satisfied. Keep your eyes on God and remember that walking through this desert is not only for yourself but it is for whoever happens to walk in a similar desert- your journey will be the path they follow to their version of a happy and fulfilled future.

In deserts you are encouraged not to speak as it results in your body losing water. In the figurative desert I think that you need to know WHEN to speak. But being silent (basically not complaining that nothing is happening in your life) is the best option. When you speak make sure that what you say says huge amount. In your figurative desert it helps to listen and ponder more than it does to yell and complain. Remember that a desert isn’t just hot… it gets cold…super super super cold. So in a “nothing happening” season remember that happy moments can come and you can feel safe and secure but sad moments will come too and you would want nothing more than shelter. But in the desert you need to brave the weather conditions even if you are going nowhere. When the temperature drops you need to be secure and know that you will be safe- basically when the stagnation results in panic know that God has you regardless of what you are feeling.

 

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides – Hillsong, Desert Song

 

I cannot tell you when or how the desert season ends but I can tell you that harvest is on its way. Keep sowing seed into yourself and others and it will eventually come to a bountiful harvest. The desert is when you learn about yourself and who you are trusting in. The first few days – even months are torturous but you need to remind yourself that they are mere hallucinations.

 

“Something will grow from everything you are going through & it will be you.”

“Where are the people?” resumed the little prince at last. “It’s a little lonely in the desert…”

 

For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland. – Isaiah 43:19

 

The desert tests obedience and you will discover who you are without any challenges and without any success.

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